So it seemed, that it was
cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my
own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the
characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF
So... why was I surprised
when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was
cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let
him in…
Claiming we were “just
friends”..
It was already decided
for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The
One’..
You know… I was tired of
being alone,
And I simply made up in
my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the
ride,
Cause I was always the
bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical,
but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the
wait!
So I was gonna make him
‘The One’.
He had a… form of
Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change
him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta
for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Arties so clogged with MY
will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that
His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flatlined my
obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He
sawed,
Through my sternum He
sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed
right spirit within!
So now I fully
understand,
Better yet I thoroughly
comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait…
for You.
See, the bad thing is
that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning
was the Word
And he didn’t even sound
or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of
the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper
was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray
when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would
be absurd!
So forget about being
cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ♥
You were already praying
for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will
wait for you.
I will no longer date,
socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or
to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived
compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort
kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for
false companionship
I won’t lay in the
embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some
closeness,
But never feeling so far
apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ”all I gotta do is
Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’
of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks &
buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!
Who flirts with the
ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how
much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed…
alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even
interlock
We won’t even exchange
breath
Cause I have thoughts
that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get
weighted down,
From so-called friends
& family talks,
About the concern for my
biological clock
When I serve the Author
of Time.
Who is NOT subject to
time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to
STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham
& I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac &
I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone,
flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like
electrons
I will be bound to your
nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same
math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in
His image,
But you have the ability
to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what
you looked like,
You would have to look
like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy
simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in
order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation,
but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you…
because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will
remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me
of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s
Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will
remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will
remind me of David,
Your attention to detail
will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will
remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to
abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love
selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to
identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be
tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and
you will find me,
Where… the boldness of
Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of
Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the
tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one,
drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my
Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see
fit…
I desire Your will above
mine,
So even if you call me to
a life of singleness,
My heart is content with
YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love
story ever told,
The greatest story ever
known
You are forever my judge
& I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m
always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be
Yours!
And I will always wait
for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen
wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥
